In times like these, I just want to kiss you. I want you to hold me and let me feel the warmth of your body. Utter those words I’ve been wanting to hear while making love to me.  

When you feel stressed and tired, it means you’re doing something right. 

It’s a rare feeling when you fall in love with your significant other even more as days pass by. At my point of view, you only feel it when you know he’s the right one for you. Don’t ask me though the basis of knowing it because it varies. But sometimes, we experience falling out of love just because it’s not working for both parties. We have our own ups and downs. Even I encountered such feeling from the past. I guess there are some decisions that are really worth making like ending a relationship that wasn’t healthy anymore.

On that note, if every human on this earth remained a martyr and stayed, they would have not served the purpose of loving. It’s all about weighing what’s more important. Learning the hard way doesn’t need to happen. Take it from me because I did. Everyone deserves to be happy and gaining it doesn’t require crying a river over something that’s not worth every tear. 

Like what the movie This Means War reiterated, “Don’t choose a better guy. Choose a guy that will make you a better girl.” Just sayin’.

In times of shitty feeling like this, I wish I had a pint of ice cream with a box of pizza with me. I always think that eating helps reduce stress, anxiety and sadness except the part when you’re in a low-carb diet. But even if I’m in that bullcrap, I still want to eat my comfort food because I deserve it!  

I’m seeing plenty of pre-nuptial photos of my friends lately. With that being said, I must confess that I envision myself being the bride like them sometime soon. It must be a good great feeling wearing your laced & perfectly fitted wedding gown and 4-inches heels while walking down the aisle with all eyes on you. 

Some are asking at this early age if I’m going to get married soon and what my dream wedding would be. If you’re job is like mine, it must be easier for you to answer. But honestly speaking, I find it difficult to give ideas because of the weddings I’ve saw and handled. It’s really a blur of what I really want though I have this fascination about vintage and retro ever since I can remember.

Others also say that when my time comes, they’re pretty much a 100% sure that I will be the detailed-oriented bride who wants everything to be perfect. I won’t say they’re right but somehow, I do want it to be the way I  imagined it. Not really perfect but a dream come true. After all, it’s that one event in your life that will forever remain in memories of those who witnessed it. Might as well put all your efforts in making it a wonderful one.

But I do realize it’s not yet my time. It will take years to prepare for something you’ll commit for the rest of your life. At this point, I’m settling with rushing thoughts and ideas while waiting for the right moment. And of course, for my babe. 

I’ve always been a fan of you. The way you talk, cook and dress. I may not say it directly or on a daily basis but I love everything about you. 

Since page 366 of 366 has come to an end, it’s time to do a recap on how my year has been.

Here we go…

Ending another chapter of my life. Graduating has been one of my goals for 2012. I never expected to graduate with flying colors. I guess the saying “When in rain, it pours.” is true. The blessings for that day were so overwhelming that words of thank you weren’t enough. Being a Cum Laude brought pride to my family especially to my mom.

Entering a new journey. A journey to the real world. Started off with passing the interview and getting hired to one of the best hotels in the Philippines. I went through series of interviews just to get the job. I chose this hotel because I know this is the best in Subic area. I also never expected to be promoted in such short period. From Front Office to Sales and Marketing in a span of 6 months. I ventured my skills in handling events. I still have so many things to learn about my current job and good thing is I have the best mentors to guide me as I continue working as a Sales Account Officer.

Meeting new people that you’ll remain friends with forever. Memories are cherished because I spent each of it with these awesome people. Thank you for all the learnings ate’s and kuya’s. Rest assured I will make you all proud especially my ate’s at FO and kapatid’s Kuya Bryan and Ate Rona. 

Heartbreak. There was also a break-up that shocked many people closest to our hearts. I hope they’ve already understood my side. I wasn’t happy anymore and saw the need to move forward. I will always be grateful for the memories we’ve shared.

Staying friends with my high school and college loves. Thank you for always being there for me. Words are not enough to describe how happy I am to meet you guys. Cheers for another year of friendship and memories.

Family. Having a family that’s very supportive and loving was one of the highlights for the past year. The family was blessed with a bouncing baby girl and for that, we are more stronger than ever. There are some ups and downs, misunderstandings but at the end of the day, they’re still the people who got your back no matter what. I’m lucky to have a family like them.

Love. Last but definitely not the least, my favorite highlight for year. Meeting the man of my dreams, the person behind my smiles, my inspiration, the love of my life. I am truly happy and contented to have him in my life.

So that’s about it. Today is the start of a new year. I look forward to another year of pure awesomeness and happiness. Let’s start the year right with a smile and remember, let love fill our hearts. Happy New Year~